living with pain

For anyone who knows me I have A LOT of aches and pains....alot of people have called me a hypochondriac but that is not the case at all...im not making these pains up nor am i trying to get attention...#1pain-i have endometriosis and fibroids which cause pain all thru the month and especially that "special" time of the month....#2pain-i have migraines..i have had migraines for as long as i can remember...and to make things extra fun im allergic to the migraine medications...so to get relief i have to medicate myself and go to bed..if i can..i do have a 3 yr old little boy and sometimes laying down just isnt an option....#3pain i have a ruptured disc in my neck...between my C5 and C6 to be exact..i have already had the disc between my C6 and C7 removed, replaced, and fused...and i havent been able to get this current one fixed because no doctor will touch me..that in itself is a whole nother story for another day.....but day before yesterday about 7p.m. i started to get "headachy" nothing really bad just enough to piss me off...then about 10:30p.m. it hit...so i went to bed...i felt the headache alllll night long...i woke up yesterday(wednesday) with the mother of migraines....i just couldnt function...thank God joel was home from work...he was a God sent....he really took control over brodie for me for the day...which i always feel guilty for..i dont know why brodie is his son too so why shouldnt he be able to handle him for the day....anyways i had to stay in bed the whole day....until about 4p.m. i just couldnt shake the migraine...it finally let up enough for me to move around but when i have a bad migraine it always makes me sooo tired afterwards...like my body has been at war...it just wipes me out...im still groggy feeling today...i have to sit here and wait for joel's new tablet to come in the mail before i can lay down...my neck has locked up and is killing me...can't wait to laydown and chill for a bit while brodie takes a nap...then when we get up clean up this living room...it looks like a toy store has exploded in here...then probably outside for BUBBLES!!!!!!!! brodie is all into bubbles right now...i guess it could be worse....well that is all im gonna purge right now...laters!!

how precious life is....

Today is wednesday.....and for the small town i live in life has been very sad since the events of saturday morning when two little girls lost their lives in a fire...of course everyone (including me) has an opinion of what happened and what should happen to the people involved...but does it really matter??? no matter what those girls are never coming back...its just so sad...in this small town we all grew up together...whether we were close friends or not our paths cross at some point in time...i know both parents and at one time or another knew them fairly well...and no matter what anyone's opinion is of them or the things they may or may not have done in the past neither wanted or deserved this..it just shows that you never know what is going to happen in life..and you should cherish every moment you have with your kids and other loved ones...cause you may not get another moment.....my son is three...and at times his is a very challenging three year old...but even when he is having a full blown tantrum i cant help but to point at him and laugh...which usually pisses him off more...but it strikes me as funny cause i know one day i will have that memory to tell him or look back on...so i tell other parents to enjoy their kids...even if they are being bratty..enjoy them cause you may not get to forever..

it all starts here.....

hi world,

i am starting this blog and if you happen to read it awsome!!! but please be warned....i am going to type how i wish...there will be errors...please just read it and enjoy...if i happen to offend anyone i am going to go ahead and say SORRY....cause i am going to be honest first and formost...and write as if no one is reading this...i will however try to be considerate of others the best i can while still making whatever point it is i am trying to make...my name is danielle madrid rollins....i am currently a stay at home mom...i never thought i would be either...i love my little guy more than i could put into words...he keeps me going...i have been married four years and three months...this is the longest i have ever gone without a job or school and i must say...i am ready for one or the other...or both...i plan on going to school and finishing up my nursing degree as soon as brodie starts school...thats the plan...

i guess i should write what the basis of this blog is going to be...mainly just to journal my daily life mostly for myself but any who care to read also...it will be about married life..and being a mommy to a very spunky little boy...what all that involves....well i guess that is all i am going to write at this moment...

danielle